The Real Life

Moment of Crisis

April 14, 2016

BPDL9476

 

What do you do when you have a moment of crisis? Do you read the Bible? Confide in your best friend? Cry-talk to God? I’m asking because I’m in that moment. And I don’t exactly know what to do. You see, I’m a stuffer. The ultimate represser. I can shove pain so low that I forget about it. And then I think I’m okay. Until moments like this come and I remember. I remember all too well. The events replay over and over in my head and my emotions burst through me like a volcano erupting, like my body is on the verge of implosion. So what do I do?

In the past I would wallow. Let the emotions take over and I would live in it, become temporary consumed by it and then re-stuff. But I don’t want to live here anymore. I’m choosing not to live here anymore. I’m not shoving them back inside and waiting until my next eruption.

So I write.

But this time I have no words of inspiration. Just words.

And I’m sharing those words because maybe someone else is having a moment of crisis. And maybe you just need to know that you’re not alone. Maybe I just need to be reminded that I’m not alone. And that I don’t have to be ashamed and hide these moments. And that I can be honest and say that I’m not always okay.

And that’s okay.

You Might Also Like

  • Courtney Hester April 14, 2016 at 11:40 pm

    I tend to do everything that you just said as well. I think what has worked best for me is to learn the purpose of what God is taking me through. I try to cultivate an attitude of being taught when I’m in the midst of a breakdown/trial. I remind myself of scriptures that talk about persevering and giving our anxieties to God because he cares for us ( 1 Peter 5:7). And of course it always helps to talk it out and get some prayer from people!

  • Patricia Green April 15, 2016 at 12:03 am

    I have no words either Sometimes it’s nice to throw those feelings out there Trust me you’re not Alone I’m glad you’re blogging again 😍

  • Renee April 15, 2016 at 4:09 am

    You are amazing in so many ways! I love you so much!

  • PeanutButterzcup April 15, 2016 at 5:24 am

    You are absolutely Not alone…

  • Remy April 16, 2016 at 6:19 pm

    Beautiful, inspiring, and true. You are not alone. Thank you for sharing this!